When a boy or a girl come in the phase of teen age then many things changes in both like puberty, the way of talking, the way to decide something and the way to love someone. Another thing which change in teenagers is they thought that there is no one more than them but in reality they are nothing. Same things happen with me that we completed my age of 17 years then I feel many changes in me.
I was that person who was shy from childhood, a person who is feared and I was an introvert but these all things changes in me which was a positive side for me like I started taking other people, my shyness gone far away due to which I become free from all the fears but for other it was a negative side as what other see me from childhood they like that but I was changed and if a person got suddenly change then others take time to adapt that changes.
If all these things were changed then for surely one thing will also change in me and not with me this thing happen in everyone's life at that age which was falling in love. I saw hem in the drama which was held in our locality, that drama was held every year for 10 days as a religious thing. I always used to go to watch drama with my friends, my friends used to watch the drama and I used to watch her. We both never ever talk to each other but I think that she knew my feeling and she also noticed me many times according to me. I always see her but I never try to talk to her. That drama of 10 ends and I again move to normal like but this time I was not living i the same way I live before but this time there was something different because at some extent she influence me. I didn't knew where she live but even from childhood I never go anywhere apart from school to home and home to school but as I was looking for her, I found her house and everyday I pass from her house. Sometime she was in balcony, something in garden and manytimes I didn't see her. I think she noted me, not for all the times but for one time she noted me.
One day there was evening and I was at my home preparing for my exams and suddenly I feels that my heartbeat got faster and I was shocked that what was happening with me, it was not any disease or problem, I knew that but I feels that I have to go outside and at that point there was two options I have one was to go outside and other was stay at home and prepare for exam but I choose first and went outside and when I take left from the street of my house then I found that she was there with her friends and hopefully those were girls and when she come closer to me then my heartbeats got more faster then I knew that there is a connection formed between her and me. Next day there was my exam and in the exam I was continuously thinking about that is it was real??? For the next some days I was thinking about her and few days later result of my exam also come and I score very less marks than I score as usual and I found that where I was lost. I left everything for her and suddenly I even realise that it all was my thinking and she didn't even try to look at me. It was my overthinking and after this I stopped follow her and I also not found her anywhere and I realise that I was living in just thought as things like love doesn't exists. But even today I am confused that how my heartbeat identify her and got faster when she come in front of me.
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